Rue Bug

Ok, so I am aware my last post wasn't too happy... BUT! This post is happy :) No worries, I'm not withering away into a black hole, just sometimes (teehee).

Well for those of you that do not know, I got a kitten about a month ago; her name is Rue. I love love LOVE my little girl :) there are, of course times where she is driving me insane and I want to murder her, but all in all there is no way I could; I love her way too much.

Well, I have a funny story to share about my little Rue Bug.
So, Saturday night there was a YSA activity with 8 different wards (and of course there was food! YUM!). After returning home from running errands with my lovely sister Gentri (http://gentrilee.blogspot.com/) I took a shower and got ready so that I could look presentable and possibly cute enough for a guy to want to come flirt with me haha. Well, my dearest Rue LOVES to play in my bathroom and with the shower curtain and drawers and wires and just about anything she can find. As I got ready I blow dried my hair, straightened it, did my make up, etc. Afterwards I COULD NOT find Rue ANYWHERE! So, like the good momma I am, I figured she was asleep under a couch or something. I resumed getting ready and left to my activity.
3 hours later my best friend, Erica (http://theblogpost.blogspot.com/), and I returned to my home where my mother (http://www.etsy.com/people/PixiePieJewelry) was watching her favorite SYFY channel. I simply asked, "Momma, where's Rue?" she responded not knowing. My mom and I start calling her name and looking EVERYWHERE for this little chica, every time we called her name we heard her response, but could not find her. After about 5 minutes of searching I decide to look in random spots... well... I found her in a drawer... in my bathroom... she jumped in there while I was blow drying my hair and then I put the hair dryer away and shut the drawer with her in it! HOW TERRIBLE AM I!?

Well everyone, that is my story :) isn't my baby just the cutest?! *GASP* I love her way too much for my own good :)

No Matter What I Do; I Forget To Forget You

Well, it's been awhile since I blogged last... life has definitely had it's ups and downs. I know pretty much no one is gonna read this so I am just gonna vent a little. My family has had just about as much as I think we can handle right now, I am attempting to date but still just not over a recent heartache and he is all I can think about night and day, my 2 best friends were dating and they just broke up and of course I am stuck in the middle being vented to and told crap about my other best friend; I am at my breaking point.
I am hurting financially, and then am trying to find a new job because where I am just isn't cutting it. I'm trying so hard to be good and to hold onto that Iron Rod with two hands, but it is so hard. Satan is throwing everything to depress me right now. He knows that when I get depressed I seek comfort in things I shouldn't. I'm praying so hard to find joy right now, but I'm wearing thin. I know this is a super debbie-downer post, but I need to vent. I know things will get better, but it's so hard to see right now...

 I know God is watching over me and I pray that He guides me through these days. I need all the strength I can get. I have two videos that kinda show my two sides of life heart broken/alone and then trying to do what is right. If you read this post I hope you watch them both they are truly incredible songs and videos.

this is the battle that we all fight in life, going through our trials and falling away; then fighting our way back.

and this video is of heartache. the song is "break your heart" by taio cruz but it is a piano composition.

Once again sorry for being such a debbie-downer but I needed a place to vent and this seemed like the only way I could with picture and video, so that I could keep them near and dear to me. If you are struggling please grasp onto that iron rod for dear life and let Christ carry you through your trials. He loves each of us so much and hates to see us hurt. I'm learning this, and am so grateful that I am learning it; because I would still be in that alone darkness where Satan deserted me. Never let him drag you down that far....

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Happy new year fellow bloggers or followers!
2011 is gonna be such a great year i can feel it in my bones! well everyone the main reason i am blogging today is to direct you all to my sister Gentri's blog. For the month of January she will be doing her hair different every single day. Then February her make up will be different everyday. Then March I think she will be wearing a different outfit everyday (who likes outfit repeaters hahaha). And so on... All year she will be doing something different and new everyday! she will blog and post pictures every single day about it! keep up on here blog and read about her adventurous year it'll be fantastic!!!
http://gentrilee.blogspot.com

Post... More Professional Fam?

So... apparently according to my family my post was unprofessional. Well fam it's deleted. No worries. If you did read my last post you all know that I am job hunting right now. I have been working for Vans for a year and a half and most people are jealous and tell me I have the best/coolest job ever! However, they don't know the behind the scene stuff all they know is I work for a bad A company; which I do.
I have had two interviews with the new store manager for the Zumiez at University Mall for his second assistant, will be having my third interview at Vanity for an assistant position tomorrow, and had an interview for Comptoday this afternoon. All three are fantastic companies. They are all just so different. Two are full time, Two are for an assistant manager, One is a skate shop, One is a billing company, One is girlie fashion. I don't know what to pick. I find out at the beginning of next week about all of them whether I got the job or not which means I may either be turned down by all, accepted by some and have to turn down others, or accepted by one. I don't know which and I don't know which job I am supposed to choose or which one will give me more pay and benefits.
One is in West Valley, One is in Orem, One is in Murray. Which means for one of them I'd have to leave my apartment and move, and the other two stay here. However, I don't know if moving is a good thing, I feel like it might be but I just don't know! I'm so confused and just keep praying I will know what to do...
Please pray for me all.... I need the help and guidance... I pray nonstop about this; it's stressing me out...

Change

It's been awhile since I have blogged... However, TONS has changed in this girl's life!

First off: I was transferred Vans to the one at Fashion Place Mall for management
Second off: I moved to Cottonwood Heights with 2 of my closest girl friends.
Third off: My dog Pixie passed away :(
Fourth off: My sister, Chablis, my 2 nieces, Gracie and Lydia, and my nephew, Henry and for a short time my sister, Gentri, have all left me to go to Alaska.
Fifth off: Putt Putt aka my car passed away
Sixth off: I got a new car, its a scion xB her name is Lola

Look here are pictures of my apartment:

                                                             This is my kitchen:

                                                                        This is my living room:

                                                                       This is my bed:

                                                             This is the wall in my room:

 However, that's all in my life, i love it and it's fun and crazy! those are about the only things in my life right now... all i do is work i have sold my soul to that bloody company hahaha.

Viva Las Vegas/St. Geezy/Moab

Lately I have been on SO MANY ADVENTURES!! First, I went to Las Vegas and St. George and Sand Hollow with my two best friends Erica and Whitney, and we played with my friend Ty and Erica's friend Andrew and Whitney's boy Steven! It was so much fun!!!

But Oh! The adventures continued! My family and I went to Moab shortly after!

Well, There ya have it! This has been my summer thus far!

The Past 2 Months of Neglect to the Things That Matter

So.... It's been about 2 months since my last blog... I'm really sorry about that... I had some distractions and it just kinda distracted me from everything that is important to me. Update on the past two months, (and p.s. I will do a blog post soon with pictures and videos from the past two months) I met a kid, we started dating but dating other people too, I was completely twitterpated by him. And for the past month or so he was every second of everyday, and my family can vouch for that. I spent every second trying to make him happy which in the end made me start to neglect my old friends, my family, my missionary, my best friend Skyler on a mission, my church responsibilities, my work responsibilities, and the responsibilities I have to myself. Ya, he made me really happy, but he wasn't mine. He did what he told me he was going to do, date a lot. And in doing that he started dating a girl a lot. And he cares a lot about her now and he began caring more about the other girls than me. I, still, am really struggling with it and so broken, but I'm letting go because it's what I have to do for me, I need to be smart for the first time in awhile and let go and move on for my sake. So in turn with letting go I'm fixing everything I've done wrong lately. I'm gonna spend time with the friends I have neglected, I'm gonna continue management training at work, I'm gonna pay more attention to my missionary like I should be doing, I'm gonna write my best friend like I should have been doing, I'm going to be a better aunt to my nieces and nephew, I'm gonna be a better sister to my sisters, I'm going to be a better daughter to my parents, be better in my church calling, and I'm going to date as much as I can and try not to attach myself to anyone so that I can live and not get hurt.
This is my goal and my goal involves letting go of someone I care a lot about. But it is a responsibility I have to myself to make me happy again... Wish me luck... I'll need it.