Wednesday, March 11, 2015

Crash Week 2

This week brought me hope.
Awesome, right?!
I know I'm a few days late on posting this, but I have been so busy lately! On top of my organic supplements I have been taking, I also have been working with my husband's aunt who works as a holistic energy practitioner. I know that sounds kind of weird... but I promise you, it has been changing me and changing my life for the better! She works with a program called Bach Remedies. Everything they do is with natural flowers and the soul, so to speak, of the flower. What it does is you take the "soul" in drops everyday and the soul of that flower does something with yours. Whether it's Holly which helps with your anger, or whatever. But it helps your personality, and your spirit communicate better to become one with the other and create peace in your life and self.
Some of you probably are thinking... this girl has lost her mind! But, it's been one week and I've only gotten truly upset maybe once. Which, those of you who know me, know that I am very quick to get defensive and upset.
Talking to Cheryl, Michael's aunt, she has reassured me that this is just the beginning of my changing and "rewiring". She's let me know that over the course of the next few weeks the changes will get stronger and really let me be the true me.
I don't know if I could be doing as well through my chemical changes if I wasn't healing my inner being. You need to heal your chemical being, but you can't truly do that unless your spiritual being isn't healthy. Everything links to your emotions, whether it's you being sick, depression, asthma, whatever. That all comes from a core root that your spirit created. And fixing that is allowing me to fix my chemical health as well!
I know this is a huge rant on not my IUD, but this has made my week amazing! My husband has noticed a huge change and even last night said he's loved spending time with me and being around me! Because my "usual" habits and issues haven't been an issue!
Am I 100% better? Oh no, I have a journey ahead of me. And, I'm so ready for it! I am trying to get the want to work out again... that's been a bit of a battle for me... but I'll get there! Because I'm feeling better inside, I now want to feel better outside again! I haven't had that in a long time.
As I said... this week has brought me hope. And it feels incredible! :)

Sunday, March 1, 2015

Crash Week 1

Well I got through my full first week. It's been... Difficult to say the least. I have noticed a difference with my sleeping which has been so nice! I actually wake up feeling like I slept the night before! That's awesome! However, my supplements I'm taking for my detox are so disgusting! But throughout the day I can tell that they help get me through the day and make it easier to do so. But, as the evening comes and everything is starting to get out of my system, I become so cranky and short with everyone and everything around me. My husband has been very patient with me which I am very thankful. Instead of fueling the Fire like he could he has been giving me my space and letting me just be.
I have been kinda not 100% on the eating organic like I'm supposed to, but I am eating like 80% organic. I know in order to have the full effect I need to be 100% and I'm gonna do better! It's just so hard. Husband doesn't want to eat organic he loves his frozen pizzas too much, so we can't eat together and it isn't fun haha.
I'm just gonna keep plugging away. I haven't noticed a big weight loss, probably 2 pounds this week which hey, I will take any loss! But of course I would have loved some miracle 20 pound loss... Not realistic I know.
My coffee withdrawal on top of all of this has definitely played a part in how tough this week has been. I know my body is addicted to it and that isn't a good thing. But, as my doctor warned, my body is going through withdrawals from the IUD.
I'm trying to stay positive throughout the process but I won't lie that my patience is being crazy tried right now. One week down... Quite a few more to go! Wish me luck!

Thursday, February 19, 2015

Today's the Day!

As I previously explained, that later this month my IUD would be removed. Well! Today is that day! My nerves are all over the place! So excited, in yet so nervous! I don't know how my body is going to react and how my hormones will be!
AHH! So nervous!
I know this is the right thing for me though! Yesterday, I went over to the organic supplement shop next to my work, Shirlyn's, to get all of the supplements and vitamins I need to start my detox. I handed the lady there my shopping list for help finding all of it; she instantly looks at me asking if I am trying to boost my estrogen levels. I explained to her that was close, but that I am getting this devil of a contraption removed. She instantly stopped in her tracks, looked at me, and starts saying how sorry she is that I have had to battle this and that she has helped many women: customers, friends, and family members battle this.
I started my supplements and all organic eating this morning... one is absolutley disgusting... blasted slow dissolving tablet... BUT! I know that this is going to be hard, but the best thing I could EVER do for myself!
I am hoping to blog twice a week, beginning and end of the week, with my feelings and progress. This is going to be the biggest blessing of a battle I will go through! Thank you so much for everyone helping me through this and your support! I will never be able to fully express my gratitude to you!

Monday, February 2, 2015

My Truth About the Mirena.

This is a really... hard post for me to do. It's hard because I am putting a lot out there and really being honest with myself and whoever is reading this.
2 years ago I had a Mirena IUD implanted as my form of birth control. At first, it was the world's best idea! I would never forget to take it everyday, it was supposed to be hormone free, etc. I was so happy and so excited for it, and just had the highest hopes for it.

Well, it's been 2 years and I don't think I could be more miserable with it. I, along with many women that I have been reading from, have had nothing but problems with the Mirena.

Over 2 years I went from *Deep Breath* 145 pounds to almost 200. I never, in my life, thought I would ever be this fat, or unhappy. My poor husband has been so patient to deal with all the problems this has caused. Not only did I gain, I could not lose the weight. It's there and refuses to move anywhere but up. I was working out for 2 hours a day and eating nothing but chicken and veggies and lost about 5 pounds in 3 months. I was furious! That is not normal nor ok!

Each day, my depression and anxiety were getting worse. I was having anxiety attacks minimum of once a week. My Anti-Depressants weren't working. And I lost sight of who I was. I lost all pride in myself and my surroundings. I hated who I was looking at in the mirror. And nothing I did helped. No facial or skin care products could get rid of the acne covering my body as a side effect. I couldn't lose weight. And my depression just slowly began to consume me.

Then, one day, my husband couldn't take it anymore. He was so upset that I just stopped caring about myself and lack of pride I had. Though, it was so needed for me to hear, of course, it caused yet another anxiety attack. That's when I realized that this was so unhealthy for me and that I needed to do something about it.

During my research, I found a woman who took a stand and did something about what horrors this birth control does to women. She created a detox that gets you through the "Mirena Crash" that occurs once it is removed, and helps rid your body of the toxins that the copper and fake hormones it produces inside your body. The Mirena stops your body from creating progesterone and produces a fake one that literally breaks down the strength the woman normally has.

After talking to my husband I have decided to take part in this detox, and have my Mirena removed later this month. I want for this to help me in my quest for my health again; and my ability to post my progress and how I feel throughout the process.

I have many friends who have had the same issues and side effects from the Mirena, and others who have thought it was the greatest thing in the world. I don't know if they just haven't had it in long enough or if their body really just likes it more than others'. I don't mean this to be depressing, but, I hope for it to be enlightening, and helpful for women experiencing similar problems.

I want to give women hope that they can get healthy too. And that there is a better, healthier life, after the birth control is removed from their body. Please feel free to post your experiences or any ideas and suggestions that you feel will help! I know I am not alone in this battle agains the IUD.

Wish me luck!