No Matter What I Do; I Forget To Forget You

Well, it's been awhile since I blogged last... life has definitely had it's ups and downs. I know pretty much no one is gonna read this so I am just gonna vent a little. My family has had just about as much as I think we can handle right now, I am attempting to date but still just not over a recent heartache and he is all I can think about night and day, my 2 best friends were dating and they just broke up and of course I am stuck in the middle being vented to and told crap about my other best friend; I am at my breaking point.
I am hurting financially, and then am trying to find a new job because where I am just isn't cutting it. I'm trying so hard to be good and to hold onto that Iron Rod with two hands, but it is so hard. Satan is throwing everything to depress me right now. He knows that when I get depressed I seek comfort in things I shouldn't. I'm praying so hard to find joy right now, but I'm wearing thin. I know this is a super debbie-downer post, but I need to vent. I know things will get better, but it's so hard to see right now...

 I know God is watching over me and I pray that He guides me through these days. I need all the strength I can get. I have two videos that kinda show my two sides of life heart broken/alone and then trying to do what is right. If you read this post I hope you watch them both they are truly incredible songs and videos.

this is the battle that we all fight in life, going through our trials and falling away; then fighting our way back.

and this video is of heartache. the song is "break your heart" by taio cruz but it is a piano composition.

Once again sorry for being such a debbie-downer but I needed a place to vent and this seemed like the only way I could with picture and video, so that I could keep them near and dear to me. If you are struggling please grasp onto that iron rod for dear life and let Christ carry you through your trials. He loves each of us so much and hates to see us hurt. I'm learning this, and am so grateful that I am learning it; because I would still be in that alone darkness where Satan deserted me. Never let him drag you down that far....